Swinging, the ultimate confidence booster

--A large crowd has gathered around us both inside and outside the room.  How many people, I can't tell.  I am in the sex swing in the bondage room at the club suspended in the air.  Each foot positioned in one of the foot holds, with my legs eagerly spread open.  I am leaned back supported by the strap of the swing.  I grab onto the bar suspended above my head for support.  To the left of me was the girl I had been dancing with all night.  To the right of me, a bi-stander with a front row seat.  Between my legs, my husband who is giving me a proper fucking.  While keeping one hand on the bar above me for balance, I reached over to my left and unbutton and unzipped the girls jeans.  She had been flirting with me all night, it was time to see if she wanted more.  With her permission, I slowly slide my finger inside her.  She was soaking wet and oh so very warm--         

It's another Saturday night, and I'm in my closet getting ready to head out for a nice dinner with my husband.   As I look through my closet for something to wear, I'm reminded of how terrible I feel in my body.  Like most women, I worry about how I look.  I mean come on, society has told me my whole life to be sexy, I have to look a certain way.  Right?
Wrong! I am a beautiful sexy women, and sadly I had not fully realized how true this was until I got into the lifestyle.  Now I wouldn't consider myself a low self esteemed person.  I have always had confidence and believed in myself, but truth be told after having my two kids I felt like I had lost my sexy.  I was not as confident in my body anymore.  I now have way more belly than I formally had, along with a matching set of stretch marks all over it.  My boobs have lost the once fullness they had, and seem to be going more south for the winter than north.  Lets face it, I now have the "mom" body, and boy do I dislike it.

My first night at the club, I had mixed emotions.  I remember looking around the room seeing women of all ages, shapes, and sizes.  As the night when on, (and more clothing came off), I recalled thinking...."Wow, I would never have the confidence to wear something that revealing." and, "I will never be that confident in my body."

We had been invited to join a couple at a table who had been in the lifestyle for several years.
I will never forget what they said to us. "The lifestyle is full of all people. All backgrounds, shapes, sizes, sexual interest, the list goes on.  What makes this lifestyle what it is, is everyone is accepted here.  Everyone is respected here, and nobody is judged."  I recall again looking around the room, and now seeing the validity in what she said.  On the dance floor, I saw people wearing business attire, club wear, lingerie, and even nothing at all. There were people of all ages and body types, and most importantly, everyone was having a good time. This is a place where people are free to be what they want to be, not what other people say they are. At that moment, it all made sense to me. Countless people live a monogamous life because that is what society tells them to do. Just as many women (and men) think they are unattractive because society tells them they are. People judge others and feel that they are being judged by others because society tells them that is what is expected of them. The lifestyle is about living out your desires instead of suppressing them. It is about accepting and embracing yourself for what you are, without worrying about what others want you to be, and it is about accepting everyone else for who they are.

My husband and I stayed until after closing time on the night of our first club trip. After the club was closed, and everyone had gone home, we continued to talk to a few of the club employees, asking them all about the swinging and the lifestyle. One of the club employees was 100% nude during this conversation. After we finally left the club, my husband said to me "You know, he was so comfortable being naked that it actually made me comfortable to be around him while he was naked." The lifestyle allows you to be who you want to be, and it allows people to accept you for who you are. Outside of the lifestyle, few people would feel comfortable having 30 minute conversation with a naked 60 year old man, but at the club, it actually felt natural.

--The sensations were overwhelming.  The warmth of her body, the sensations of feeling like I'm floating weightless, and of course the depth of the penetration the swings allows.  In this moment I felt like myself.  I felt confident, sexy, and completely comfortable in my own skin.  I had regained that person I was before kids.  The lifestyle has allowed me to see myself in a different light, and has help me embrace who I really am.

Has the lifestyle built up your confidence level or changed your view point?  Tell me about it below.